September 27, 2007

Dear God,

You've given me so much on my life journey. It's been a tough year, but I know I've learned a lot, and I know that all we've gone through has been for my benefit and I will be able to use it in my life.

I feel like over the past few weeks you've been heaping blessings upon us. You've given us a new home, with the swimming pool I'm crazy about. You've given my hubby a job he loves, you've brought us back to our closest friends and have blessed us with new ones as well. I'm just awed by how much you are doing in my life.

Please continue to guide me, allow me to be your faithful servant. Allow me to fulfill my destiny in this life live up to my full potential.

I love you.

November 20, 2006

Dear God,

I've been sick again. This time I knew you were with me and I wasn't so angry. I know you are growing me and helping me to learn to love myself.

Thank you for showing me The Secret. Thank you for Suse. Thank you for your comforting presence.

I love you.

November 8, 2006

Dear God,

Now that I'm not sick, my heart and mind are lighter. I'm no longer feeling angry, not with you or anyone else.

Today, I'm just grateful. Grateful to you for all that you have provided in my life. Grateful that you have given me friends to help me on my way. Grateful for my hubby, and how much he loves me, even when I'm crazy. Grateful for my awesome daughter, for Eastgate, and of course most of all grateful for for you. Because you are always with me, loving me, saving me from sinking when I feel like I've got nothing else to hold on to.

I love you so much. My heart is full with it, and my cup is running over.

November 6, 2006

Dear God,

Yesterday I realized I've been angry with you. I'm angry because I don't understand why we have to be here in this place where I am sick all of the time and we have no insurance. I've been angry because I want things my way and I'm frustrated that I'm not getting my way. So, I'm saying that I want to surrender my life to you, while still trying to hold on to the wheel and drive myself.

Then as I'm sitting in church realizing that I'm angry with you, Rob starts talking and unbelievably it's like everything he says is straight from you to me. Thank you for showing me once again how much you love me. Thank you for showing me my value in this world. Thank you for Eastgate and your amazing guidance.

I love you so much, and I want so much to be everything you want me to be. Thank you again for staying with me and holding me when I hurt. Thank you for helping me again to see those things which seem to become obscure, and I lose sight of what you've taught me.

Please guide me in all I do, allow me to speak the words you want me to say. Use me to do your will, I want to serve you every day.

November 3, 2006

Dear God,

I love you. Thank you for being with me. Thank you for holding me. Please allow me to surrender my life to you today. Please guide me and direct me and allow me to do your will.

October 27, 2006

Dear God,

I keep moving closer and then further from you. I want to always be close. I see you and being with you as the greatest thing I can imagine.

I have so much disdain for this world. I struggle to find balance between my spiritual life and life in this world. I only know how to find pleasure in you, but here I am living in this material world and resenting being here. I don't seem to appreciate each day as a gift, because I see each day as a curse.

I try to see you in everything, but more often I see the influence of the devil in this world.

People have said that you put us here to enjoy this world, but I don't believe that. I believe we're here to learn and see that this is not our home. This makes me want you more, but it makes living here harder.

Please guide me in my life today, allow me to do your will and serve you.